Counting Stars to Feel Again

“I reached out trying to love but I feel nothing. Yeah, my heart is numb” - OneRepublic’s “Feel Again”

This. This may just be the perfect description of how I’ve been feeling lately… Numb.

I want to have emotions and I want to feel but something’s just not capturing inside of me. Things aren’t hitting me the same way they used to. I don’t feel love and I can’t cry. This brick wall is up and I don’t even know how it got there…

“But with you, I feel again.” I’m waiting… Not for a “you” but for this dreaded empty-heartedness to go away. I’m waiting for a big pot of bunny rabbits and rainbows to warm my heart up.

Maybe that’s why “everything that kills me makes me feel alive.” I’ve been numb for so long that I actually want to feel pain… have this need to feel pain just to remind myself that I’m not an empty shell.

I don’t know what happy feels like. I don’t know what sadness is anymore. Not remembering how it feels is saddening… yet here I am. Numb.

This better be just a damn phase.

I reached out trying to love but I feel nothing. Yeah, my heart is numb
OneRepublic’s “Feel Again”
Everything I can’t be is everything you should be.
OneRepublic, “Come Home”
Keep cool, stay tough.
‘Lessons in Love’ by Neon Trees feat. Kaskade

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You kiss me on the phone and I don’t think it reaches…
“Turn Me Up” by Carly Rae Jepsen
I used to be love drunk but now I’m hungover. LOVE YOU FOREVER, but forever is over.
“Love Drunk” by Boys Like Girls
Some boys take a beautiful girl and hide her away from the rest of the world. I wanna be the one to walk in the sun!
“Girls Just Want To Have Fun”, Cyndi Lauper
Give ‘em hell, turn their heads. Gonna live life ‘til we’re dead. Give me scars, give me pain. Then they’ll say to me, say to me, say to me, ‘There goes a fighter! There goes a fighter! Here comes a fighter!’ That’s what they’ll say to me, say to me, say to me. ‘This one’s a fighter.’
“The Fighter” by Gym Class Heroes (feat. Ryan Tedder)
Old enough to know but too young to care!
Anberlin’s Haight Street
What would you do if I told you that I la-la-la-la-loooove you?
The Cab
When you rap lyrics to a song without messing up.

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You a chihuahua, I’m a rottweiler.
Will.I.Am

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Imagination. Life is your creation.
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